Click here for a video on how I put the site in, the video is back from Aug 2011 and is a belly site. I need to make a better one someday.
Put the site in, and, DoH! I forgot to clean off her skin, she had been kind of sweaty in bed, the site didn't stick! Now I have to pull that one off, and do another one.
I'm irritated because my stupidity just wasted a $10 site, she's irritated because even though she is used to putting sites in, they still hurt, and she is tired. She is crying now, but silent big alligator tears rolling down her face. Somehow those silent tears make me feel worse than if she was just blubbering and hollering.
I gave her an alcohol wipe, got a new site out, got it ready to go, waited for the alcohol to dry on her skin. Put the site in and this time it worked.
I cleaned up the mess, Brian primed the tube, got Kortnie hooked back up, gave her the 1.5 units of insulin. I told her to go get back in bed, I went downstairs and put the insulin in the fridge.
Came back up, went into her room and she was in her bed, all bundled up in her blanket, still crying, I gave her a kiss and asked if she was okay. She said yes, still crying.
"Does the site hurt?"
"Are you just tired"
"Go back to sleep now"
She was still crying, her face looked so sad, I could almost read her thoughts and they seemed to be
"why me, this sucks, I'm tired, stupid diabetes, stinkin' needles and pokes"
She didn't say any of that, but I am pretty sure she was thinking it, I know in that moment, looking at my sad, brave girl I was thinking it.
Man, what a life! For me, it was an inconvenience to have forgotten to take care of her pump stuff earlier, but for her it was more than an inconvenience. To be woken up, to have to go in the bright light, to be stuck not once, but twice because mom messed up the first time.
I felt crappy that in my haste to get out of the house, I had forgotten to remind her and to tell her dad that she needed a new site.
But, she felt even worse about the whole situation.
Last night, was a D-Mom fail in my book. Definitely not my first fail, probably not my last fail. It sucks, but there is always next week, right?
For the record
2:12am check was 98
6:47am check was 102
And she was in a good mood, no mention of the drama of last night.
I wonder if she even remembers.
That is a WIN!
Hah! Diabetes can suck it!
Last nights fail turned into a win this morning.