D-Mom Fail, Oh well, there's always next week!

We had a fail last night.  Sad episode for sure. 

 

Here is how it went.

 

Kork is watching a little TV before Girl Scouts, I was on my computer finishing up the taxes.

 

"Beep, Beep"

 

Me- "Is that your pump?"

 

Her "yeah"

 

"Well, what's it beeping about?"

 

"Low Cartridge, less than 10U"

this means that she is running out of insulin in her pump, which means that its time for a site change because I usually put 150-175 units in her pump each time and that lasts us 3-4 days, so when the pump runs out, its time to fill it up and to change the site.  You don't have to do both at the same time, but doing them at the same time works for us.

 

"Okay, after dinner, lets remember to change your site and cartridge"

 

"Okay"

 

15 minutes later we are heading out the door to Girl Scouts.  I left my older daughter at home with 2 of my daycare kids who she helps out with quite often and its a way for her to earn some money.  I took 2 of my other daycare kids and my 5 year old son with us.  It was my week to help out with the troop, also I am cookie mom this year, so I had to go get the girls cookie orders so I could log them on the computer and order their cookies for them.  Got to the church where we have scouts, put my son and the 2 daycare kids in the playroom, then I went to the scout meeting with Kortnie.  While the girls were working on their craft I tallied up the cookie orders.  The mom of my 2 daycare kids showed up to pick up her kids, I talked with her a minute, then a GS mom showed up and asked me about Kortnie and K's plans for a sleepover the next night.  So we talked about that and got the details hammered out.  I packed up Kortnie and her brother in the car, headed home to get Stasia, then we went to the grocery store and picked out some soup to go with our grilled cheese sandwiches.  Back home, it's now about 5:30pm.  I told the kids a few chores they needed to finish up and I started making dinner, grilled cheese and chicken noodle soup.  Got the kids eating, (gave Kortnie insulin and everything) a load of laundry in the dryer, and hubby walks in about 6:30pm.  Gave him a quick kiss then headed upstairs to get ready for my Zumba class at 7, while he visited with the kids while they ate. I got changed and folded a load of laundry.  Came back downstairs, told Brian and the kids that I was going, they need to put their dishes in the dishwasher, get their folded clothes off my bed, and be in bed reading by 8pm.  I went to Zumba and got in my "me time".  When class was over I talked to my friend in the parking lot for a few or fifteen minutes, got in my car, had 3 texts waiting.  I answered them, stopped by my church on the way home to get a schedule for our ward's women's volleyball and talked to the ladies there for awhile.  Finally I got home around 8:45ish.  All the kids were asleep. 

 

Do you see where I am going with this?

 

I had a quick shower, made myself a grilled cheese and sat down to watch Once Upon A Time on Netflix with Brian and enjoy my sandwich. 

 

About 10pm-ish, our show was over and time for us to go to bed.  I tidied up the house, started the dishwasher, put wood on the fire, brushed my teeth.  AND, went to check Kortnie's blood sugar.

 

Her BG was 205, not bad, she needed a little bolus of 1.50 Units of insulin to get her down in a better range.  Went to give her the bolus and ....

 

"Beep, Beep, Beep"

I had totally forgotten about the beep, beep, beep from earlier!

 

I check the pump and it says something like "failure to deliver, not enough insulin"

 

Oh crap, there is only 1 unit left and she needs 1.5 units now, and she still needs her basal rate all night long, and she's sound asleep, and I've never tried to do a site change on her while she is sleeping, and I'm not going to try that now either, she'll probably wake up and punch me.

 

So, I wake her up.

 

"Kork, come on, we gotta get up, we forgot you were running out of insulin, and we forgot to do a site change"

 

"oh, can't we do it tomorrow?"

 

"no baby you are out of insulin, we have to do it now or you'll get sick"

 

She started getting up, I told my husband who was in bed that Kortnie was coming and we needed to do a site change.  (Our bed is where we do the site changes, always)  I went downstairs to get the insulin out of the fridge.

 

Kortnie was sitting on my bed half asleep, went into my closet and got the site and cartridge, told Brian to get the site ready, told Kortnie to take off her old site, I filled the cartridge. 

 

I handed the cartridge and pump to Brian so he could get that all loaded, I put the site in Kortnie.
Click here for a video on how I put the site in, the video is back from Aug 2011 and is a belly site.  I need to make a better one someday.

Put the site in, and, DoH!  I forgot to clean off her skin, she had been kind of sweaty in bed, the site didn't stick!  Now I have to pull that one off, and do another one. 

I'm irritated because my stupidity just wasted a $10 site, she's irritated because even though she is used to putting sites in, they still hurt, and she is tired.  She is crying now, but silent big alligator tears rolling down her face.  Somehow those silent tears make me feel worse than if she was just blubbering and hollering. 

I gave her an alcohol wipe, got a new site out, got it ready to go, waited for the alcohol to dry on her skin.  Put the site in and this time it worked. 

I cleaned up the mess, Brian primed the tube, got Kortnie hooked back up, gave her the 1.5 units of insulin.  I told her to go get back in bed, I went downstairs and put the insulin in the fridge.

Came back up, went into her room and she was in her bed, all bundled up in her blanket, still crying, I gave her a kiss and asked if she was okay.  She said yes, still crying.

"Does the site hurt?"

"No"

"Are you just tired"

"Yes"

"Go back to sleep now"

"Okay"

She was still crying, her face looked so sad, I could almost read her thoughts and they seemed to be
"why me, this sucks, I'm tired, stupid diabetes, stinkin' needles and pokes"

She didn't say any of that, but I am pretty sure she was thinking it, I know in that moment, looking at my sad, brave girl I was thinking it. 

Man, what a life!  For me, it was an inconvenience to have forgotten to take care of her pump stuff earlier, but for her it was more than an inconvenience.  To be woken up, to have to go in the bright light, to be stuck not once, but twice because mom messed up the first time.

I felt crappy that in my haste to get out of the house, I had forgotten to remind her and to tell her dad that she needed a new site.

But, she felt even worse about the whole situation. 

Last night, was a D-Mom fail in my book.  Definitely not my first fail, probably not my last fail.  It sucks, but there is always next week, right?

For the record

2:12am check was 98

6:47am check was 102

WINNING!

And she was in a good mood, no mention of the drama of last night.
I wonder if she even remembers.

That is a WIN!

Hah! Diabetes can suck it!

Last nights fail turned into a win this morning.

 

 

48 Questions, A Good One to Start the New Year Off

Meri over at Our Diabetic Life answered 48 Questions.  I thought I would try it too, I need something to kick off a new year of blogging.  As far as Kortnie's D-Life, right now everything is ho hum, blah, blah, blah.  Oh don't get me wrong, Diabetes has been kicking my ass and pissing me off since before Christmas, but it always does that and I don't feel like dwelling on it or whining about it, and that crap Diabetes is pulling is nothing new or perplexing (well it is perplexing, but not in a new kind of way!), so I needed something to get me going, and a fun 48 getting to know you questionnaire thingy seemed the way to go.  Here we go!

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?

I was named after some songs, Amanda by good ole' Waylon Jennings, and Mandy by Barry Manilow.

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?

I don't know. Recently I'm sure.  I cry a lot, because I have leaky eyes, just random stuff will make me cry, actually I think I cried a little on Saturday, because Anastasia (my oldest) made the first basket at her basketball game.   I  am sure that I cried Sunday during church, and I'm sure I cried some other time this week too, its just what I do.

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?

Ehh, it's okay.

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?

I like this peppered turkey, it isn't crusted in pepper, but has ribbons of pepper going all thru it, I get it at the deli at Walmart.  I think it might be made by Sara Lee

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?

I have 3 of them.  Two girls and a boy.  I do daycare out of my home, so I have more kids that I think are mine, I teach Nursery at my church, little guys 18months-3 years old, I think they are mine too.  I am PTO President for 3 years now, at the K-3 school in my town, I think all of those kids are mine too. 

 

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?

I think so.

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?

Never!

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?

Yep.

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?

Yes!  Actually I think I would, but most likely I would chicken out at the last minute. 

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?

I like Oatmeal Squares, and Special K with chunks of chocolate and dried strawberries, I got it at the store last week on sale, it said limited edition on the box.  I also love Cream of Wheat

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?

No,but then when I go to put them back on I untie them.  I kinda hate wearing shoes, always have, but the older I get, I find that wearing shoes, actually makes my back and feet feel better, so....whatever!

 

12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?

I guess so.  But that leaky eye thing I have is kind of wimpy, isn't it?

 13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?

All of them, I love ice cream it is my weakness.  Cookies and Cream, Mocha Almond Fudge, Pistachio, Coffee Chocolate Chip, Mint Chip, Peanut Butter, Pecans and Pralines, Sweet Cream, Brownie Nut Fudge, those are some.  Now I want ice cream. 

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?

Their smile and their eyes.

15. RED OR PINK?

Ummm, neither or both?  This is a hard one.  I have red hair, so red?  Well, my hair is strawberry blond, so that is more pink, so pink?  The color red as in clothing or lipstick, looks terrible on me while pink looks good on me-so I'm told, so pink?  I don't really like to wear pink though, mauve or purplely pink is okay.   Red roses are nice, but I like the pink geraniums I grow too.   Our rabbit has red eyes and they are kind of freaky, pink eye sucks too.  I drive a Red SUV Truck and I like that, its fun having a red car, no one wants a pink car.  I'm on the fence with this one.

16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?

My thighs and booty, or my leaky eyes.

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?

No one really, I have my guy and my kids around me, they are all I need.  Sure, I miss my family both mine and my husbands family members who don't live close, but we are lucky enough to see them often or have seen them recently, so I am not missing them much, not right now at least.  I miss working at the airport in Phoenix and I miss the people there.  Yeah, that is my final answer.

18. WHAT IS THE TECHNIQUE THAT YOU NEED TO WORK ON THE MOST?

Since this is my D-Mom blog, I'd say that I need to work on Combo Bolusing and Temp Basals the most.  As a whole, I would say I need to work on....nothing, I am perfect the way I am!  Seriously though, I can't really think of anything else.

19. WHAT COLOR SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?

I have on these black deck shoes, they have tiny little pink, gray, and white hearts all over them.  I bought them for $1 a couple years ago at a rummage sale.  They have tons of holes in them, in the toes, the sides, and the heel even. I don't really wear lots of pink like I said before, and I don't have anything else jewelry or clothing that has hearts on it, but I love these shoes because they slip on and are comfy and worn in, I just got back from picking my oldest up at basketball practice, I sat right down to finish this post up and didn't even kick off my shoes beforehand.  I am kicking them off right now though.

20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?

An orange and a couple of pistachios.

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?

My 3 kids and 1 daycare kid talking and watching Sponge Bob on Netflix (I HATE Sponge Bob!), now they are changing it to playing the Wii Fit.

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?

Cerulean.  Its like an ocean skyish blue color.  There used to be a Crayola crayon with that name and it was my favorite.

23. FAVORITE SMELLS?

Clean babies, garlic, bread baking, vanilla, oranges, the ocean, and finally-this one is kind of weird-pepsi.  Brian drinks pepsi all day long, and when he comes home from work and gives me a kiss, he always has pepsi breath, when I smell pepsi it makes me think of him.

24. HOW IMPORTANT ARE YOUR POLITICAL VIEWS TO YOU?

They are important to me, but I don't think my views are important to everyone else, so I usually keep them to myself.  I am tired of seeing every ones political views and arguments all over facebook and everywhere else.  If you don't have something nice to say then don't say anything at all.  How many peoples views or votes are changed by something posted on facebook.  Politics and Facebook and Politics and Trying to Argue with me when I state what I think are my pet peeves.  Can you tell?

25. MOUNTAIN HIDEAWAY OR BEACH HOUSE?

Beach house, I crave the ocean.  A mountain hideaway would be nice too, but it has to have a lake or stream close by.

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?

Whatever my kids are playing.  My oldest is sporty, she does it all, I think my favorite to watch her do is swimming.  I like football too, but we don't have TV so I don't get to watch it, but going to a High School game is fun.  I like the Olympics, but again, no TV and no matter how I searched I could not find live Olympics on the Internet this summer :(

27. HAIR COLOR?

Red, or Strawberry Blond, remember we covered this already.

28. EYE COLOR?

Hazel, more brown than green.

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?

Yes, I'm pretty blind, even when I wear my glasses I can't really see. 

30. FAVORITE FOOD?

Hamburgers.  I like lots of food but hamburgers I could eat forever if I had to.

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?

Happy Endings.

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?

I watched Red the other night with my husband.  We got it as a Netflix DVD in the mail.  It was funny.  We watch a lot of movies, before that we watched  Trouble With the Curve, it was good, but kind of slow, I got that one at the Redbox.  We've also watched Princess Diaries 1 and 2, Transformers 3, and Magic Mike in the past week.  The last movie I saw at the theatre was 007 Skyfall.

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?

My Color Run shirt that I got when I did the Albuquerque Color Run last August.

34. SUMMER OR WINTER?

Spring and Fall.  Oooh, I'm such a rebel!

35. FAVORITE DESSERT?

Ice cream, or better yet a milkshake to go with my hamburger.

36. STRENGTH TRAINING OR CARDIO?

Cardio.  I was never much of an excerciser, but I am finding I like Zumba and running.

37. COMPUTER OR TELEVISION?

No TV for us, I like the computer, but I also like Netflix, of TV shows on the computer!

38. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?

None, which is sad because I like reading, I need to go to the library and get me a book.

39. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?

I don't have a mouse or a mouse pad.  I have a laptop.

 

40. FAVORITE SOUND?

The kids laughing genuinely not that fake obnoxious laughing. 

41. FAVORITE GENRE OF MUSIC?

I like almost all of it. 

42. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?

My dad was in the military so wherever we were was home.   I've lived in AZ for the last 17 years though and the farthest I've been from here would be Hawaii.  (When I was a kid I went to Japan for a layover on our way to Guam where we lived for 2 years, so maybe one of those would be considered far from our home of the US) 

43. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?

Not really, except that I'm perfect!   Don't you remember from earlier?  Silly questions.

44. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?

Edmonds, Washington.  A suburb of Seattle.

45. WHERE ARE YOU LIVING NOW?

Snowflake, Arizona.  Ironic name for a town in Arizona isn't it?  It isn't even named for snow or snowflakes, its named for the first settlers here, the Snow and the Flake families, but it does snow here.

46. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR HOUSE?

White or gray or cream colored with a darker gray or black trim.  I suspect it was Gray with Dark Gray trim originally.

47. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR CAR?

Red!

48. DO YOU LIKE ANSWERING 48 QUESTIONS?

I do, it was fun, I like reading answers to 48 questions better, hope some more people do these.