Day 19 Write about Life and Death

Life and Death?

How can I write about that?

Since I am still playing catch up, I am keeping this one short.

Life and Type 1 Diabetes-it can be good, with hard work and perserverance, we can help Kortnie to live a good long life with her Type 1 Diabetes.  I will always, ALWAYS, work hard to make sure she has a good long life.  I will always expect everyone around us to keep an eye out and help her to live a good long life.  I will always fight for whatever I need to fight for to keep her healthy and strong and to treat and take care of her T1D.

Death and Type 1 Diabetes-it's the scariest thing ever to think about, but it's a realility.  Eventually (hopefully when she is OLD), she will die of a complication of her Type 1 Diabetes.  I can accept that, but again I'm going to work hard, very hard, harder on this than anything, to make sure that she lives a good long life.  Unfortunatly there is are so many things that can bring really hard times, complications, or even death to our door, but I believe that we will continue to strive and work hard to keep death away.  She WILL live to be an old Great-Grandma, she will see many things and she will live a good long life, longer than me. 

Life and Death, kind of a hard thing to think about, but I think about it often, it's a demon of mine, I'm sure her dad too.

In the hospital at diagnosis, she was so sad and having a hard time, she was 5 and she kept asking us "I'll have this until I die?" or "I'll have to do this until I die?"  I kept saying to her, "yes, for the rest of your life". 

How hard is that to hear from your 5 year old?  HARD I tell you, HARD!

This is all I have to say about this, it's depressing, I don't want to think about it anymore right now.